"I told him long ago, after Gyda died, that he should send me away for grief follows where I go." Athelstan's throat moves sharply and he looks down. "Even then, before we were lovers, he wouldn't hear of it."
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"I told him long ago, after Gyda died, that he should send me away for grief follows where I go." Athelstan's throat moves sharply and he looks down. "Even then, before we were lovers, he wouldn't hear of it."